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I need to play some music really loudly right now and scream along with it. Sadly, it's midnight and my kiddos are asleep (nevermind wanting to be decent neighbors, of course). Not only that, but I can't find the music I want to play - the case is empty, and the CD seems to be missing.

ARGH.

Edited to add: Oh, but thank God for Brian. Seriously, he's got a knack for timing, he does. It's helpful beyond all belief.

Goodies!

On Saturday, we received a sweet package from the lovely mix3d3m0ti0n5! She had hand-dyed "playsilks" for each of the boys in their favorite colors (orange for Jack, yellow for A.J.), and she made me a beautiful yellow-and-orange bracelet from her jewelry business. The playsilks are so neat, and Jack carted his around EVERYWHERE with him on Saturday, while A.J. read quietly under his on his bed. And my bracelet is GORGEOUS - there's nothing on her website like it, so I'll have to get a picture of it soon to show off the loveliness. She also wrote each of us our own special note with our gift, and I've saved them for scrapbooking.

Thank you so much, Anna! You are such a dear! :-)

My teeth are chattering.

I've often joked that I "live in my office." Though it's not entirely true, I do spend a good bit of time in here, as I "live online."

Over two weeks ago, when the weather was nice for several days in a row, we had the windows open for a solid week. In the last week, we've had cooler days, and unfortunately, the window in my office is stuck open at the top about an inch. I can't force it closed, and I can't lock the windows because the joint in the middle doesn't meet up due to that inch.

And it is FREEZING in here. I've toughed out the colder temps for the last few days, including some fierce winds that literally howl through the mini-blinds, but I can't stand it any longer. I've pushed and pulled on the window, I've used other things for leverage, and I had my neighbor try to push it up - no dice.

So I finally called maintenance for the most weinie issue ever, but I swear - I'm turning into a Nicole popsicle over here! It doesn't help that today is not just cold, but also rainy and windy, either. Brrrrr!

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I'm itching a real desire to cut out folks that are bringing me down. It stinks that there is history involved, but when I think all day long and can't come up with anything positive, that can't be a good thing.

Sometimes I feel trapped in my journal. That shouldn't be - especially not with a journal that is almost completely wide-open. But I think I'm spending too much time caring what others think. Even more, I'm spending too much time hoping or wishing they care, and that really only leaves me feeling hurt in the end.

But I feel like I need to surround myself with things that I view in a positive light. That I need some impetus to help me move only forward with my life. And hurt feelings, disappointment and worrying about other people is not positive. I know this.

My family, my faith, and the happy relationships that I have are what is important.