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You guys came through for me.
Dec. 31st, 2004 01:58 pmIn a BIG way.
I don't think you'll ever know how much it helped, how much my heart was touched yesterday by all of your kind words, promises of prayers, good thoughts, offers of help or shoulders to lean on.
Even friends not here in LJ-land came through for me. These folks go out of their way to make sure I know I have their support and help, and they take the time to make me and my family a part of their lives, even though it's not as easy as just clicking a 'friends' list' page.
I have the best friends. Thank you - all of you.
I've learned that it's not just me, not just our family. So many people were crying yesterday with the news. There are not a lot of good feelings going around about this change. It's just very... unsettling, and the change has completely thrown the peace I had out the window. It seems to be that way for everyone who knows us closely. Maria cried multiple times with me yesterday. Heather, who always tries to be so strong no matter what, broke down about 4pm yesterday. Annie put up a brave front for a bit, but then ended up crying as well - even through all her medication. It's a big deal - and not just to me and our family.
And that is such a comfort. It really is.
I have figured up today that Philip will only be home for about 9.5 weeks of 2005. I know that so many people are so glad to see 2004 end. With my new knowledge of what's to come, I almost want to beg for these last 10 hours to last forever. I'm not excited about 2005 anymore.
But come it will, even though I'm gripping the earth's axis as tight as I can. And with the dawning of the new year, I must put on a very brave face. For the boys. For my extended family. For the world.
For me, too. (My friends - God bless them - they'll still let me fall apart, and I know that I'll need that from time to time.)
And there's no point wallowing out the next 10 hours, either. So... *this* is the turning point. There will be no more tears this year. I have put in my contacts today, and I must not cry salty tears all over them.
Tonight is Game Night. We will get together, play games, laugh, joke and be merry. It is the perfect way to bring in the new year - surrounded by good friends and laughter (and some yells from the Sieberts for the football games going on).
I don't think you'll ever know how much it helped, how much my heart was touched yesterday by all of your kind words, promises of prayers, good thoughts, offers of help or shoulders to lean on.
Even friends not here in LJ-land came through for me. These folks go out of their way to make sure I know I have their support and help, and they take the time to make me and my family a part of their lives, even though it's not as easy as just clicking a 'friends' list' page.
I have the best friends. Thank you - all of you.
I've learned that it's not just me, not just our family. So many people were crying yesterday with the news. There are not a lot of good feelings going around about this change. It's just very... unsettling, and the change has completely thrown the peace I had out the window. It seems to be that way for everyone who knows us closely. Maria cried multiple times with me yesterday. Heather, who always tries to be so strong no matter what, broke down about 4pm yesterday. Annie put up a brave front for a bit, but then ended up crying as well - even through all her medication. It's a big deal - and not just to me and our family.
And that is such a comfort. It really is.
I have figured up today that Philip will only be home for about 9.5 weeks of 2005. I know that so many people are so glad to see 2004 end. With my new knowledge of what's to come, I almost want to beg for these last 10 hours to last forever. I'm not excited about 2005 anymore.
But come it will, even though I'm gripping the earth's axis as tight as I can. And with the dawning of the new year, I must put on a very brave face. For the boys. For my extended family. For the world.
For me, too. (My friends - God bless them - they'll still let me fall apart, and I know that I'll need that from time to time.)
And there's no point wallowing out the next 10 hours, either. So... *this* is the turning point. There will be no more tears this year. I have put in my contacts today, and I must not cry salty tears all over them.
Tonight is Game Night. We will get together, play games, laugh, joke and be merry. It is the perfect way to bring in the new year - surrounded by good friends and laughter (and some yells from the Sieberts for the football games going on).
